If You Think You Have A 'Bad" Chart....
You do.
Let me explain.
This is a bit of a tough love post but I say it WITH very much LOVE.
As someone who has to intentionally work with my mind. As someone with three planets in detriment (for starters) and as someone who’s health has been at the forefront for much of my life.
As someone who’s been there at times, especially when I began studying astrology and felt like… really? Really? REALLY?! sometimes.
I still have moments when I learn something new, go deeper and uncover something that feels a bit 🤬. I take those moments to be with it and then I begin the journey of unpacking what that energy needs for me to create change - I think of many of these natal placements as righting the reverse Tarot Card (I did an entire video on this in Sacred Success Codes).
It was the anniversary of Harold’s death last week and it hit me much harder than I anticipated. A swell of grief racked me and I threw myself a little pity party. I cried. A lot. I watched old videos. I FELT it and then the next day I got back to gratitude for all our time and adventures together, for all he gave me, and his Soul’s journey. I reoriented. I didn’t stay there. I let it pass through.
Our orientation is everything.
If you come into a reading looking for all of the challenges in your chart, and all of the reasons why life is hard and you are suffering, why you’re stuck, you will find them. If you approach your Astrology and/or Human Design as a victim, you will find perceived validation.
You can and will find evidence to support your perspective, your orientation…
every
single
time.
We ALL have challenges and strengths in our chart. I advocate for the understanding of that intersection with our lives. We don’t all begin at the same starting line. It can be incredibly beautiful to understand our sticky points with greater clarity and also see routes through. Every single archetype has a high and low expression. Every placement has places where we can get bogged down or we can find flow. We experience cosmic weather. Sometimes it storms, and with awareness we bring our umbrella, wear our rain jacket, take more time to get where we’re going, etc… I’m not here to say things don’t get hard, but we always have choice.
Much like the saying “how we do one thing is how we do everything”, the lens with which we view our life, circumstances, and the ways in which that is mirrored out and in and within our charts is the same.
If you look at your life as happening to you, if you feel a victim of circumstance, you will see more of that in your life. And in your chart(s).
You will see all fate instead of AGENCY.
Our perspective is everything.
That is not to say you bring it on yourself if you are in, say, a health crisis but it is to say if you get up every day and marinate in your symptoms and pain and suffering and STORY, if you take on your health crisis as a defining piece of your identity, it is much harder to heal. You will find a revolving door of symptoms to keep you stuck in the identity you’ve curated, consciously or otherwise.
Gossiping and complaining drain our energy when we're doing it 1:1 so imagine the energy leaking when you get up every day and share over and over on social media to the masses about the 'dumpster fires' and how challenging life is, how intense, how crazy everyone is... not from a space of detachment and the ridiculousness of the circus, but from inside it, you will get more of the same to enforce your current state of being.
I am by no means saying to ignore or bypass adversity or not process our feelings or face our obstacles, but I am saying what you marinate in and broadcast on repeat, is what you attract. The Universe LOVES to prove you right and give you more. You are tuned in to that particular station and its greatest hits.
And if you approach your chart as this thing happening to you rather than a living breathing evolving roadmap for your own evolution and up-leveling, you will find ways to validate your victimhood rather than access your power.
I've seen clients do it again and again, and I am not a rainbows and unicorns kind of reader. I am a truth teller always. I'm pretty sure one of my reviews says "no bullshit". AND in that truth there is always autonomy, there is always agency, there is always what you do with it. Clients are always telling me that I shifted something for them and they can see a pathway, empowerment, where they once thought they had no control.
I also truly believe those with, what one might view, as the 'tough' charts make for the most interesting humans. And the most incredible lightworkers. We're all on our own journey.
If you look at your chart(s) through the lens of agency and curiosity, you take up residence in wonder + awe at the beauty of your unique human experience, you will find ways to rise, to alchemize, to align with high vibrations, to channel the energy productively, to learn, grow, evolve and level up again and again as a result of what once felt like limitation. You may take a few detours but you will come to know that it’s in your edges you are the most riveting. It’s in your path of deconditioning and transmuting energy you mine the most gold.
Nothing is good or bad. It’s all energy. It’s… your contrast and kaleidoscope. It all wants us to honor and find its unique authentic expression. Those crunchy bits are where the best of you is born.
You are made of f*#king stardust and YOU ARE MAGIC!
“There is in man a double spring of action, namely nature and will; nature for its part is ruled by the stars, while the will is free; but unless it (the will) resists, it is swept along by nature and becomes mechanical”
-Albertus Magnus